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- Article 1 : Hello Darlings!
- Article 2 : Gay Community Integration into mainstream society?
- Article 3 : Journal, She Wrote. - Starring Fabula DiBeaumarchais As Mangela Flangebury
- Article 4 : A LIFE IN THE DAY
- Article 5 : NICE TREATY IS “NICE” FOR IRISH GAYS
- Article 6 : Hello My Fabulous Darlings!
- Article 7 : THE RISE OF THE RIGHT MUST BE CHALLENGED
- Article 8 : Proust Questionnaire
- Article 9 : The Ten Commandments According To DiBeaumarchais
- Article 11 : The Catholic Church!
- Article 19 : Oh what a week!
- Article 24 : A sort of Fabula Homes and Manservants, if you will...
- Article 36 : Mother DiBeaumarchais came to visit.
- Article 41 : American / Iraqi Crisis
- Article 49 : Brendan Howlin and Labour
- Article 63 : NICE - WHY IT HAS TO BE YES!
- Article 64 : Message from Ms DiBeaumarchais’ Social Secretary
- Article 65 : First Transmission
- Article 68 : Menopause Beckons!
- Article 69 : THE MONTH BEFORE CHRISTMAS
- Article 78 : Talkin’ all that Jazz
- Article 98 : Cork Queen Of Drag....... Receive OBE At Palace...
- Article 113 : Gay Ireland in 2002
- Article 114 : Au revoir dame douce
- Article 126 : Ritual de la Habitual
- Article 127 : I’m baaaa-ack!
- Article 140 : New breed of popstar
- Article 152 : GETTING TOUGH WITH CHILD SEX ABUSE
- Article 171 : WHO WUZ ROBBED?
- Article 188 : My Gym Hell
- Article 217 : My GUM Hell
- Article 242 : Well, hello Cork!
- Article 272 : Thousands flock to Cork hospital
- Article 298 : Get ready, boys!
- Article 313 : Bon soiree, mes Anges.
- Article 332 : Best mates boyfriend is two timing him....
- Article 333 : I've become a 'cumless fucking machine'
- Article 334 : How do i get rid of crabs for good
- Article 341 : just turned 17
- Article 342 : Transitioning transexuals
- Article 345 : The Mystery of the Vanishing Paired-up Poofters
- Article 354 : GONORRHOEA & SYHPILIS ALERT!
- Article 355 : Problem with my anus....
- Article 356 : Coldsores from sucking or oral?
- Article 361 : White spots
- Article 373 : Porn
- Article 374 : I' m gay.I've always known I was.sometimes I can deal with it sometimes I cant
- Article 375 : Services In the Cork Region
- Article 377 : My problem is to do with my penis
- Article 378 : Are There Any Symtoms to HIV/AIDS?
- Article 386 : My heart breaks I hate myself for not being good looking
- Article 388 : Whatever Happened To Baby Fabula?
- Article 389 : Warts on the penis
- Article 401 : I've never actaully cum when i'm with another guy
- Article 407 : I have convinced myself I've got HIV
- Article 409 : Happy Aids Day
- Article 410 : I need advice on how to meet men
- Article 417 : Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells!
- Article 421 : I broke out with lots of red lumps or bumps
- Article 422 : Discoloured Semen
- Article 426 : Hello, my name is.. FABULA
- Article 437 : I always cum way too soon
- Article 439 : Small tiny little dots on the head of my penis
- Article 452 : Cycling and ED
- Article 453 : Small Penis / Sore Bottom
- Article 461 : I am to be wed!
- Article 464 : Bleeding ass
- Article 465 : I am in a crisis. I never thought I was a lesbian until a girl started flirting with me.
- Article 476 : The Third Annual Alternative Miss Cork
- Article 478 : Severe stomach pain
- Article 479 : Poppers
- Article 481 : Thanks for your listening ears
- Article 482 : Anal sex
- Article 483 : Piles
- Article 484 : I can't meet gay women.
- Article 493 : Is there a gay society for UCC?
- Article 509 : I finally went and got checked
- Article 521 : I'm a bit hairy around my groin
- Article 528 : I was in a sauna in Dublin recently
- Article 545 : Fannypad Advertisements!
- Article 566 : More happy days, oh, more happy days…
- Article 590 : Slightly-used Stepchildren.
- Article 644 : Vatican Declares 'War' On Spain Over Gay Marriage
- Article 645 : Mexician Inmates May Get Conjugal Visits
- Article 646 : Gay Rights Activist Murdered In Sierra Leone
- Article 647 : Morocco Jails UK Man For Gay Sex
- Article 648 : Uganda Fines Radio Station After Gays Interviewed
- Article 649 : UK Football Association Join Anti Homophobia Campaign
- Article 650 : Will Young Nets Footballer
- Article 651 : Madonna’s Spiritual Visit To Israel
- Article 652 : Is Matt Le Blanc Gay?
- Article 653 : Gay Gene Survives Because It Boosts Fertility
- Article 654 : Priests Want Gay Sex Tests For Newcomers
- Article 655 : Gay Novel Wins Booker Prize
- Article 656 : Iowa Parents Want Gay Books Banned
- Article 657 : Americans Sought For Injecting Indian HIV Patients With Animal Vaccine
- Article 658 : MODEL 'IS AXED FOR HER NO TO GAY SEX'
- Article 659 : Madonna And Hubby Guy Team Up Again
- Article 660 : Disturbing" Hate Crime Figures Revealed In Belfast
- Article 661 : Irish Bishop Backs Gay Rights
- Article 662 : Tortured Gay Journalist Released, Granted Asylum
- Article 663 : P Diddy Predicts Gay President
- Article 664 : Topless Britney's New Vid
- Article 665 : Cops Investigated Over Anti-Gay Emails
- Article 666 : Rare Infection Spreading Among Gay Men
- Article 667 : London Gay Bashing Spree Leaves 1 Dead 4 Injured
- Article 668 : Friends Remember Gay Murder Victim
- Article 669 : Ahern Backs Equal Tax Rights For Gay Couples
- Article 670 : Pope Tells Protestant Churches To Bar Gays
- Article 671 : Smoking By Young Gays At 'Alarming' Level
- Article 672 : Black HIV Patients Suffer At Hands Of White Doctors Study Says
- Article 673 : Trial Begins In Baseball Bat Gay Killing
- Article 674 : Transsexual Marriage Case Goes To Trial
- Article 675 : Irish PM Calls For Recognition Of Gay Couples
- Article 676 : Scotland & Norway Move Towards Legalizing Gay Adoption
- Article 677 : Elton Reportedly Preparing To Say 'I Do'
- Article 678 : Gay Man Elected Mayor In Matthew Shepard's Home Town
- Article 679 : Cathedral Trashed In Gay Exorcism
- Article 680 : Paris Hilton Has Music Problems
- Article 681 : CALL FOR UNITY OVER GAYS
- Article 682 : INTIMATE DIANA TAPE AIRED
- Article 683 : Poncho Spice Hides Bump
- Article 684 : Elton's £1 Million Fund
- Article 685 : Events Set To Challenge Northern Ireland's Homophobia
- Article 686 : Fears of Stoning and Violence For Gay Man
- Article 687 : Kylie Slams Reality Stars
- Article 688 : Madge Fears Stalker Death
- Article 689 : Teacher Sues Gay Mom Over Classroom Discipline Charge
- Article 690 : Beyonce Criticised by PETA
- Article 691 : Hello girls! - It’s Christmas!
- Article 692 : So here I am your Boy About Town.
- Article 693 : New Bar, New Man and some Old Pole……..
- Article 694 : SUMMER TIME AND THE LIVING IS EASY….
- Article 695 : SUMMER LIVING AND THE LOVING IS EASY (Part 2)
- Article 696 : It is come upon us!
- Article 697 : Man Idol & Autumn
- Article 698 : Coronation Street And Its Evils
- Article 699 : My new monthly residency!!
- Article 701 : test
- Article 704 : A Christmas Turkey
- Article 705 : Coláiste Stiofáin Naofa LGB
- Article 706 : George Michael accuses Elton John over 'gay grapevine'
- Article 707 : Top of the Pops, The New Madonna and Trannie Hookers on Acid.
- Article 710 : Spain's government approves gay marriage bill
- Article 713 : Brian 'admits dating Delta'
- Article 714 : Happy New Year Darlings!
- Article 720 : Spanish bishops defy Vatican by backing condoms
- Article 721 : Digital Revolution
- Article 722 : Beauty and the Priest
- Article 723 : Alternative Miss Cork & Pink Parade
- Article 731 : Kylie to play fifth Dublin date
- Article 732 : The Brit Awards and Experimantal Pop. Plus Reviews and Gig Guide
- Article 733 : AMC & Cilit Bang!
- Article 734 : Two Chemicals Found To Boost Immune Cells' Ability To Fight HIV
- Article 735 : Scholars reject Church's gay-tolerant plan
- Article 736 : Goldfish Memory
- Article 737 : Other Place Karaoke
- Article 738 : The Cross Dressing King of New York, New Order, Kate Bush and Siobhan Fahey.
- Article 739 : THE LAST TEMPTATION OF FAT
- Article 740 : Cloud 9
- Article 741 : Patrick's Day & Rainbow Float
- Article 742 : International Womens Day
- Article 743 : Rainbow Ramblers
- Article 744 : Cork gay groups
- Article 745 : Introducing myself
- Article 746 : My first Scene round up..
- Article 747 : New Retro, Spandau v’s Duran and The Sammy Jo Controversy.
- Article 748 : THE TIGRESS AT BAY – AN INTIMATE PORTRAIT OF FABULA
- Article 750 : Eurovision 2005
- Article 751 : Instinct Foam
- Article 752 : Women's Fun Weekend
- Article 753 : 21st Cork Womens Fun Weekend
- Article 754 : Written on the Soul
- Article 755 : Fun In The Foam
- Article 756 : Summer Gigs, Royksopp Review, Loafers and My Top 10 Records.
- Article 757 : Bern & New Lesbian group
- Article 758 : Annual Summer Camp
- Article 759 : Grub Cafe & API
- Article 760 : New Lesbian Dining Club
- Article 761 : Pink Travel
- Article 762 : The battle for recognition of gay marriage
- Article 763 : Post Cork Gay Pride
- Article 765 : Queer In Cork
- Article 766 : Sleater Kinney
- Article 767 : I CAN'T believe it's September already!
- Article 768 : LINC Workshop
- Article 769 : Gay-Friendly Place
- Article 770 : Hectic schedule summer break!!
- Article 771 : Please not the Remix!, Madonna goes to Studio 54, and give me back my T please.
- Article 772 : C.R.A.Z.Y
- Article 773 : THE NEW INSTINCT
- Article 774 : CORK WOMENS FUN WEEKEND
- Article 775 : BYE BYE INSTINCT @ THE OYSTER
- Article 776 : CONGRATS
- Article 777 : CORK GAY HILWALKERS
- Article 778 : A BUSY ARPIL?
- Article 779 : THE MURAL PROJECT
- Article 780 : HAPPY PATRICKS DAY
- Article 781 : LINC AND LUCEY
- Article 782 : REFRAIN
- Article 783 : RAPID programme
- Article 784 : Always the best man and never the groom?
- Article 785 : Now is not the time to be complacent.
- Article 786 : Old & Gay
- Article 787 : Say It With Flowers
- Article 788 : Two-Minute Rant
- Article 789 : Ireland - “Nearer 1603 than 2003”
- Article 790 : Who are the Savages now?
- Article 791 : The Rise of the New, New Man
- Article 793 : What’s up with the Little Pricks Anyway?
- Article 794 : Seaside, Fantasy Ball & BiSexuals
- Article 796 : Cork Pride 2006
- Article 797 : SCHOOL'S OUT!
- Article 798 : A LINC Summer
- Article 799 : PARTNERSHIP RIGHTS
- Article 800 : Gay Movies
- Article 801 : Other Place / Loafers Summer
- Article 802 : A July of Lesbians
- Article 803 : Grub Cafe
- Article 804 : Summer Outings
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Hello Darlings!
I thought that this month I’d give you all a little excerpt from my forthcoming novel, a collection of bedtime stories for children.
Enjoy!
Hoorah!
Lovings,
F DiB XXXXXXXXXXXXX
DEATH OF A LEGEND
She opened her eyes to the sensation of many pairs of hands strapping a plaster girdle around her hourglass torso. She yawned, her perfect pink mouth breaking its usual candy-smile into a grimace of exhaustion. Oxygenated, she swung her shapely, shiny, tanned legs out of the Dream Bed and into her precariously high baby-pink mules. She reached for her chiffon-and-marabou cerise negligee, and, tying the cord around her, rose from her bed.
Standing up, she once again gave silent thanks for the corset she wore. It prevented her spine from snapping from the weight of her grossly distended breasts. The poison chalice of the life of a glamour model, she thought, and tottered across her bedroom, to her dressing table.
Looking in the mirror, she surveyed the damage with a critical, blue-shadowed eye. Her hair, her one beauty left to her, lay in fuzzy disarray around her slightly square shoulders. Her face had taken on the appearance of something grotesque and surreal, vinyl-like now, from many years of laying about in the sun. ‘I look like a Pepperami in a cheap nylon wig. ‘, she mused, before remembering her actress’ training, and plastering on her smile-for-all-occasions, a vapid grimace of perfectly white teeth framed by baby-pink clam lips.
‘Today is the day, ‘, she thought. ‘Today is the End. ‘.
In the Jacuzzi, as the hot water raged angrily around her, she remembered how it had been in the Sixties. She had been so in love with Ken then, she a promising secretary, and he, the clean-cut all-American college football hero. Throughout the seventies and eighties, while her professional life raged from career to career (she’d been a teacher, a doctor, an astronaut, a vet, a ballerina… how could she remember all of her short-lived jobs?), he had been her one constant. Ken, her love, her picture-perfect man to go with her picture-perfect life. Even with his horrible hair, even with his white plastic dress shoes, she’d loved him, and he had loved her.
But now?
Now there was nothing. He’d started drinking. He’d knocked her around a few times. She’d tried to get away, but had nothing to go to. She was trapped. She, the figurehead, the public face of a Multinational corporation ,with wardrobes of Fashion Avenue gowns, crates of tiny, custom-made shoes. She’d beaten off all of the competitors… the English one, Sindy something-or-other, and those young Bratz, with their collagen blowjob lips and huge feet, to remain the true Queen of Beauty. Hers was an unforgiving and exacting profession, and she’d remained flawless for long. ‘Dance like an Angel on the pinhead of success.’, was a quote she remembered.
And what of her family? Her two sisters? She couldn’t go to them. Skipper’s marriage to Paul was long-since over; she was barely surviving on her tiny widow’s pension, and what she didn’t spend on cheap and nasty food for her two screaming brat children (she was certain the older one had a look of Ken about it), she poured down her throat in the form of Vodka. And Shelley, her youngest sister? She hadn’t heard from Shelley since the newspapers got hold of her life-story. She remembered the headline - ‘Sister of International Beauty Star Lives As Crack Whore - She won’t help me out, Says Shelley’. Of course, they were both out of the question.
So it comes to this, she mused. She got the elevator of the Dream House downstairs to the walk-in wardrobe and selected her outfit. Pink satin bomber jacket, with candy-pink clingy minidress, pink wool tights and pink stiletto mules. And her handbag, pink PVC. If she tried another colour, she tended to get sudden nosebleeds and her head ached. She supposed it was psychosomatic, but when your company puts you in a certain colour for almost fifty years, you tend not to stray in the autumn of your life. She sighted as she surveyed her reflection. Perfect in Pink. She felt nothing anymore.
She crossed to the kitchen and found it where she’d left it. Joe, her Joe, her little G.I. Who’d been so good to her lately, had done a marvellous job with the gun. A Beretta in satin-finish black rubber. Untraceable and indistinguishable from the scores of other loose guns laying about in this neighbourhood. She put it in her bag and closed it with a decisive snap.
So this was it.
She was going to see Ken.
See him, and see to him.
She crossed the garden to where Ken slept. In these later years he had flatly refused to share her bed in the Dream Bedroom, preferring instead to spend the nights in her convertible corvette with chrome detail, a bottle in one hand (usually marked ‘Cluedo’ - his favourite brand), and a syringe in the other. As her life-partner he was privy to such little pieces from all the major Company Boards, and ‘Operation Ltd.’ was one of his most-abused contacts. ‘If that fucker’s nose goes red one more time…’, he’d hiss, if the company’s president threatened legal action when more of his equipment went missing.
‘Ken.’. Her voice was hard, resigned.
Nothing. He snored on.
‘KEN! ‘, she shouted, and he woke with a start, dropping the bottle and the syringe, where they joined the dog, the iron and the top hat, under the chassis of the corvette.
‘What the fuck… what d’you want? ‘, he growled.
‘To talk to you. ‘, she said, noticing that an edge of fear had crept into her voice. He sat up now, and his robe flopped open, carelessly. She shuddered to see what a mess of marks and bruises his body had become.
‘No need to fear it, babe, ‘, he smirked, grabbing his exposed crotch. ‘Time was when you couldn’t get enough. ‘. She looked at him.
‘Ken, this isn’t working. I don’t love you anymore. ‘.
He threw his head back and laughed. ‘Who cares? Think I fucking love you? Christ, you’ve got an opinion of yourself, sweetheart. ‘. She felt a bubble of rage grow inside her, and went on.
‘I mean it, Ken. I don’t love you, and haven’t for a long time. I need this to be over. ‘.
He looked at her now, properly looked at her for the first time. His expression was quizzical, but confident. ‘So what? So fucking what? I hate your guts, you hate mine, we fuck around… you get out of line and I smack you one… you know we have to be together for your company. ‘.
‘For my company’s money, you mean. ‘, she challenged. ‘I don’t see you champing at the bit to get a new job. ‘.
He coloured at this. ‘What the fuck did you say? ‘, he hissed. ‘Never talk to me like that, bitch! You goddamned whore, that’s what you are, a filthy whore.’ .
She smiled at him, that vacuous pink-and-white smile. ‘A whore who keeps you in booze and syringes. Never forget that, Ken. ‘.
She knew then, as he rose to run at her, that she had pushed him over the edge. He ran at her with his fists raised. ‘I’ll fucking kill you for that, cunt…. ‘.
Bang.
She pulled the trigger and caught him square in the chest. As the bullet pierced his body, his chest shattered and shards of flesh-coloured material scattered everywhere. He fell backwards, a kind of ironic smile playing on his salmon-coloured lips, his hair, moulded and perfect.
She considered the scene for a moment.
‘Maybe it would have helped if we’d been able to have sex. Too late for you now, my knobless Darling. ‘.
She looked around her. Others would come soon. Joe, the G.I., who’d lent her the gun, was revving up his 4X4 in the distance. Squeak the dog was snapping angrily from his kennel. It was a matter of time before the Important Ones came, and she was taken away and locked up.
That wouldn’t happen.
She knew how it must end. She knew how she could make it all go away.
She crossed the room and lay down in front of the giant 2-bar electric fire that dominated the neighbourhood. As everything turned softer and warmer, as her very life melted away from her quietly and quickly, she imagined the headlines:
‘Barbie Commits Suicide’.
The End. |